I received my blood test results on Friday and as I was reviewing it, I felt a sense of excitement and joy. Everything was in normal range. My inflammation was normal, and so was my anti-bodies. I decided to call the physician office to speak with a nurse about the blood results. I was wondering what did this mean? Was I in remission? As the nurse was looking over the results, she said to me "It just means you are not showing any symptoms, Lupus never goes away. The doctor will see you in six months and if the blood test are the same, then she may announce that you are in remission."
The words "Lupus never goes away" stuck with me for a while. I realized that there are 1.5 million Americans diagnosed with Lupus and about 5 million worldwide. Systemic lupus accounts for 70% of Lupus cases. I wonder how many of those millions of people believe that it never goes away. If that is what the doctor says then it must be right. I don't believe it!
We have the capability to cure ourselves. Doctors have an idea of how you get systemic lupus but they are not certain. Some say it is due to stress or a retro-virus, and others are just puzzled. Each of us who has this disease should look at our lives and should do a personal evaluation. When did the symptoms arise, how, what kind of environment was I in, how did I feel, what are my thoughts like, do I love myself or feel loved, and determine if there is a connection. A lot of diseases are affiliated with our mind concepts of ourselves and also what we put into our bodies. The mind and body work as one. You can not heal your body if you do not set your mind to it.
Just thinking positive thoughts for one day is not going to heal you from Lupus. This is an everyday challenge and many of us who have Lupus are on different levels of severity. Some are on dialysis, had organs removed and some may have the rash on the face, but know wherever you stand you have the potential to take control. Don't let the disease take over your life and believe that you have that capability to cure yourself. It may take 6 months to years of working hard to heal yourselves but if you made those first steps then you are on the right path of recovery.
I believe the cure is within ourselves, and I can't wait to share with you when I am Lupus free. I try to do my best by loving myself, being patient, letting go of anger and determining myself to be Lupus free. I can not do this all by myself. I need a higher power as well. You have to believe that there is a spiritual force out there that can bring light into your life. We have to feel and accept that we are loved by others and to use that love to give us energy to heal. God has the incredible power to give us the love and energy to cure ourselves but we also have to take responsibility. I don't believe you can just pray and hope that God will take care of everything. I believe He will guide us, and show us the way but we have to take our lives in our own hands. We have to make that effort to heal ourselves, and we can do it.
hi purple butterfly,
ReplyDeletei don't think i've found a life story as close to mine as yours. Like you I'm also a nurse supervisor @ a home health agency. A lot of your stories remind me so much of what I went through before. I'm turning 26 and have been diagnosed with lupus a little over 2 yrs ago. And just like you I know one day I will be able to say I am lupus free!! It's so nice to find someone that feels the same way.