We all have the potential to become Miracles!!!

The last year has been difficult and especially the last 3 months I have felt a sense of lost and hopelessness because I had to surrender to my doctors, and take the medications that they insisted on. I felt that I was becoming like all the other Lupus patients, taking the meds, relying on what the doctor says and just trying to control my symptoms. About 2-3 weeks ago, I started to listen to music again. I use to listen to music (all different types) all the time, but since marrying my husband, who doesnt particularly care so much for music, I have not listened to it as much. As I was listening, and feeling inspired and energetic, something came over me. I just started pouring out, and crying. I was not crying because of my pain, or feeling sorry for myself or because of my sufferring but I was crying for God to give me the strength to overcome and get rid of this disease. I was crying because I know that I am not the only one suffering with this disease and pain. I was crying because I know God loves me, and I need to accept that!

 I felt a sense of desperation and redetermination and I felt such a strong and clear answer that I am not meant to live like this. This is not me! This is not my life! I called to God and my grandparents, and told them "I will be healed, I AM healed and I need you to be with me!"
I put in my mind again that this is not my purpose in life. I have been through a lot with this disease, and I am grateful for this journey but the journey is ending. It has ended! I determined myself that I will get off these medications, and I AM free of Lupus!

When I think of the future, I think of all the many things that I am going to do, and what I will accomplish...I don't think about how this disease is going to effect my future and dreams. I know it can be hard to imagine a life without symptoms or a disease that has "defined" you but you must have hope and determination that no disease will truly stop you from being who you truly are.

We all have a purpose in life and I absolutely KNOW that living with Lupus or any other disease is not our purpose. This is not our destination! We have to be strong and tell ourselves that we can overcome and we WILL overcome! Relying on medications, doctors and others is not our answer. The question is "Do you CHOOSE to stay and live with this disease or are you going to DECIDE to get rid of it?"
The answer is your personal decision but for me I have CHOSEN to say that I AM HEALED and I AM LUPUS FREE!

It is amazing how God will give you answers in ways you least expect. I was not expecting to get this redetermination while listening to Taylor Swift but it happened. And then last night I watched an incredible testimony by Anita Moorjani on you tube. This video again just confirmed to me that my decision is the right decision for me!
 
We all have this incredible source of love and power that we can heal ourselves. Please, take a look at the video if you have a chance. Anita's near death experience reminds me that I could be a lot worst but I am not, and if this could happen to her, why not me!?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjLouLHH-_I&feature=share

I think each and everyone of us our Miracles, whether we know it or not. We may or may not have a disease to overcome, but some how your life can be filled with miracles. You can become a miracle for someone! Just being able to live in this world, and to have love surrounding you is a miracle.

I know that I will be cured of Lupus and it will be done in a Miraculous way!!!